How can I pick just one person really..I could go with someone famous, or I could go with someone important in history...or I could dig into my family tree...But there are two people that if I could meet them just once mabey I could have some peace.
Dear Blace and Suzanne,
I wish I could have met you. You died in my tummy when you were just little peanuts in my uterus. I guess I'll never really know if you two were actually girls. I guess I just had that feeling you were. It wasn't our time. Mommy couldn't take care of you then, I couldn't take care of myself very well. I wouldn't have been the best Mommy. But I would have (and still do) loved you. I carried a lot of pain when you girls died. I still do. But its getting better. I wish I could have held you, I wish I could have heard your first cries and held your tiny hands. Would you have looked like me..or your fathers. Blace your Daddy died a few years ago. He had blue eyes..I'm sure you would have too. Come to think of it, I guess you two are up there together. He loved you too. Tell Casey to take good care of you. Suzanne your father was a jerk and an a**, and he wouldn't have been in your life. Don't worry we wouldn't have needed him. I guess when Aleina was born she filled some of the hole you two left in my heart. She is so amazing, I wonder if you girls would have had the same personality. I still miss you..Aleina makes it easier. But I'll always think of you...just know that I loved you the minute I found out about you. I mourned you when you died and I will always wonder what could have been. I'll see you again one day and ill hold you till my arms give out, and even then we can just lay together and cuddle. I'll make up for all the years we missed. Watch over us...I love you girls!
Mommy
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